Carry me through.

Today was good; hard moments though. Difficult to stand idly by while your child is in pain, especially difficult to sit and watch them suffer knowing that it is ultimately for their own good. If we give Jack too much morphine then it snows him and he doesn't breath well. If we don't move and adjust him here and there then fluid builds up around his heart and that's no good either.

So we do the things to him that hurt and we don't give him everything we can because we love him and we know what is best for him. But, we don't ask him to do more than we know he can do. We believe in him, rally around him and feel just plain awful watching him struggle with what we are calling upon him to do.

Sound familiar?

I swear, the plan of salvation similarities are just too good for me to ignore. We are all here in this mortal state, being called upon in different ways to do hard things. Things that we beg and plead with Heavenly Father to just take away. Make it better. And sometimes he does,

. . .and sometimes he doesn't. And them's the brakes. No amount of anger, resentfulness, pleading or bargaining will change the fact that we are all subject to the will of a loving Father in Heaven.

Here, in this moment though there is a tremendous opportunity. Opportunity to draw nearer to God; to come to know yourself and his ways more intimately. A chance to rely on something bigger than you. Your chance to show that you trust and believe that our Father in Heaven knows you and loves you personally. That he knows your sorrows. Once you do this, submit to the will of the Father then; that is the moment where your capacity to accept and feel the strength of the spirit can grow immensely.

Submitting to the will of the Father is part of it, the other part of it is in the asking; prayer. Our prayers and the prayers offered by many on our behalf. What a difference this has made, all the difference. Asking for help, understanding and strength to endure. These past days in the hospital have been hard and at times just downright awful but they've also been incredibly wonderful. We have seen miracles, felt the strength of the spirt being poured out over us and then that same comforting spirit has resided mightily with us, carrying all of us through these times.